If Not For….

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Psalm 63:2 So I have looked for you in the sanctuary to see Your Power and Glory

Isaiah 41:10 Fear not for I am with you, Be not dismayed for I am your God

I will strengthen you, yes I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand

James 1:2 My brethren count it all joy when you fall into various trials

If Not For….

If not for painful trials I endure, how would I know of Your great faithfulness

If not for all my failures, how could I know the depth of Your forgiveness

If not for Your death on a cross for me, how could I begin to understand Your mercy

towards my sinfulness

If not for your protective sanctuary, how could I ever begin to see Your glory

If not for my hard times, that you worked for my good, how could I ever tell your story

Of  a tender God who carried me, when my human strength  was spent

If not for a loving God, how could I bend my knees and tell You the things that I repent

If not for all the unpleasantness of life, how could I learn to trust You day by day

If not for the tender grace that You give to me, could I try to submit to You in all my ways

If not for all the many blessings You bestow to me, even though there is nothing I

 could ever do to deserve it

If not for Your very Presence, which brings me untold joy, how would I ever be free from evil’s darkest pit

I am giving it to the Lord

My body is flawed and not perfect

I am giving it to the Lord

Sometimes my thoughts are scattered and ineffective

I am giving it to the Lord

In some situations I feel scared and vulnerable when pushed outside my comfort zone

I am giving it to the Lord

My good intentions are occasionally misunderstood

I am giving it to the Lord

Some people can be cold and rude

I am giving it to the Lord

I am not perfect and make mistakes

I am giving it to the Lord

Sometimes I dislike the path the Lord has set before me and wish things were easier

I am giving it to the Lord

I do not love enough

I am giving it to the Lord

At times I can be hard headed and stubborn

I am giving it to the Lord

Sometimes I say the wrong things

I am giving it to the Lord

In every weakness that I give to the Lord he replaces it with his power and his strength to do the impossible so I surrender my burdens along with my praise and

I am giving to the Lord

Today

Today Lord I don’t feel like a Christian as anger wells in my heart

I feel overwhelmed by the trials that befall me and I feel ripped apart

I want to hide from the world and just catch my breath

But fear and worry pursue me, will it be this way until  death

I Lie in the darkness alone with my pain

I cry out Your name Lord for mercy, I give You free reign

To sift and to mold me but please give me Your peace

From past choices that haunt me, please put my mind now at ease

For I need this reprieve

Help me to step out in faith and make a new start

To throw off the old man and put joy in my heart

Please give me eyes that see, what you see

And a mind that discerns, what Your will should be, played out by me

To shape a life that reflects all that you teach

That speaks to the lost and the lonely that seem out of reach

For it is not my life, but Your life, I was saved by your grace

And your love  is the fuel that keeps me running this race

A Heart Under Siege

Psalm 31:21

“Praise be to the Lord

For He showed me the wonders of his love

When I was in a city under siege.”

A Heart Under Siege

When I had no one You were there

When no one believed in me You always cared

When I was crippled You carried me

When I was blind You helped me see

Jesus, You set the captive free

Free from self loathing, free from regret

Free to be me without worry or frets

Always forgiving You showed the way

You broke up the boulders of shame and remorse day after day

Binding up wounds with Your love and Your grace

Finding strength in Your promises while seeking your face

Teaching me how to be only me

And not what others think I should be

For you have told me I am the work of your hands

It doesn’t matter if others don’t understand

The path that you want me to walk as you lead

All the while rescuing a heart under siege